I can NOT believe that today was Jackson's first day of Kindergarten! This morning, i was pretty anxious. Actually, let's face it, i have been anxious for weeks! Last night i couldn't sleep & i just laid there and prayed. And prayed. And prayed. I really didn't want to make a blubbering idiot of myself, & i wanted Jackson to be excited & calm, so i decided to leave it up to the Lord! And guess what.... it worked!!!
This morning, he started saying, "I not know about this, mama." And he kept saying it. So i kept telling him he was going to have a great day! This started about the time that i was getting ready for his "official" picture....


He looked so handsome this morning! I convinced him to wear a polo on his first day to look nice with the bargain that next week he could pick out his own clothes. The only problem was that it was cool this morning & he really needed to wear pants. This is a problem because he thinks that pants that actually FIT him, are too long. (i guess i kept him in his old high waters too long, eh?) So this started a mini-meltdown, but we got it together... whew!
I prayed more on the way to school because i had a pit in my stomach & i was pretty shaky! On the way in the car he started again with the "i not know about this" thing, and said, "You're gonna leave me here all day? All by myself??" (Turn the knife, big guy!) So i told him that he was going to have a great time & that he wasn't going to be alone- he would be there making new friends & playing fun games & learning new things. About this time, we were parking & he looked like he was getting ready to cry, but he held it together & slowly got his bookbag & got out of the car.

I let him lead the way, just making sure he knew where he was going. I made sure to tell him that i would be picking him up in the car pool line in the afternoon, so to make sure he looked for my car. Then he wanted to know how "they" would know which car was his? So I told him that he knew what my car looked like, right? Still, he wanted more... "But what if there is another car like yours? How will they know this one is yours?" So i told him i had a sign with is name on it so they knew Jackson went in
this car. He walked ever so slowly into the school....

At this point... i was feeling like maybe i could tear up, but pushed it down! He just looked so grown walking in there with all those big kids! Then we ran into our neighbor from next door so this got him more excited when he saw a face he knew.... so then he was a little more chipper walking the rest of the way....

He actually smiled when he recognized his classroom & the teacher from next door was outside her door & spoke sweetly to him....

So he walked in... and he put his lunch box where it belonged & his bookbag in his cubby.... but was grinning this nervous grin & chuckling his nervous chuckle.....

So i told the teacher he was a little nervous when she walked over, but when i asked Jackson if i could take his picture with Mrs. Byrd, he grinned & said, "yeah!!!!"..... Of course i told her i was a scrapbooker, but i would have gotten this shot if it killed me, scrapbook or not!

Then he remembered where his seat was & slowly walked over to sit in it. I grabbed him, hugged him, kissed him, & told him that i loved him, that he was going to have a FABULOUS day & that i would miss him. Then I asked if i could take one more picture before we left....

Cutie patootie, huh? He just sat there, nervous looking when i walked out the door... still not coloring, so i stopped, whispered, "Jackson!" and when he looked over, i said, "color!!" & he grinned & nodded.
I couldn't believe i got out of there with no tears! Truly, the Lord was by my side, being faithful because i have been a basket case for weeks... even yesterday i was crying all over the place anytime i talked about it!!
WHen 3:45pm rolled around i couldn't wait to get him. I missed him terribly!! So when i saw this....

I did MY nervous chuckle laugh to keep from crying myself! And i told him as he was climbing in the car.... "Jackson, i have never been so excited to see you in ALL my life!!! How was your day???"

His response??? "Mama, i loved Kindergarten first day..... (pause)....
FOR REAL!" And he gave me a big high five!
And now i can breathe again.......
oh.... and in the car later this evening he actually told his Daddy that he made a friend... that her name was Kennedy & "not the Kennedy from next door to Emma." (his cousins have a neighbor, Kennedy). When i asked if she sat at his table, he nodded.... come to find out, i even got a picture of her... she is up there in that picture where he was grinning at the table just before i left.....